The Soul Project

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HILARY

Milton, MA

Mother, wife, entrepreneur, activist & feminist. I am a work in progress and I worry a most about my children's happiness. I've battled anxiety & depression since childhood. I fear depression - I fear becoming so depressed that I can't take care of myself or loved ones. Anxiety is very hard to control and can be quite embarrassing - sometimes I'll sweat profusely, shake, my speech can be come incoherent & I lose my train of thought. In the past I turned to alcohol to cope with these issues. There was a time when I could only make connections with people when I was drinking because I was such an anxious person. Now that I'm sober I make real connections all the time and its so much more real and enjoyable. It’s when I'm making positive connections with others that I feel most alive. There are so many things I do now to stay "balanced". Exercise is crucial! I also take medication, go to AA meetings and have a sponsor I check in with regularly. Prayer and meditation help along with staying connected with friends and loved ones. My nature is to want to isolate when I'm not feeling mentally fit but what I really need is to connect with others who know what I'm going through. I wish women did less trash talking. I wish there was less fear and anger in this world and more compassion and giving without expectation. Happiness comes from making yourself a better person and being able to relax and enjoy the ride. Beauty is confidence. In a romantic relationship it is important to support each others passions and give one another at least one compliment a day. I am proud of my passion for trying to understand what others are going through. I hope to inspire others by being open and honest about who I am. I am in love with the journey that is my life. I love to make people happy and proud. I am Hilary and I am just trying my darnedest to be the best version of myself.