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JASMINE

Stoughton, MA

Daughter of the Most High, Wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend, business owner, student & pet mom. I believe it is through my faith that endless miracles have occurred. I've overcome depression, obesity & cardiac issues. I struggled with infertility. Being told my first round of IVF didn't work was my worst day. I was devastated to know an embryo hadn't survived. My son Jaydan was eventually born in July of 2018 - that was the best day of my life. Im afraid of losing everything I've built over the last 10 years & letting my son and husband down. I worry about Jaydan - being a black male living in this crazy world. During my teen years I felt I wasn't good enough - I ended up falling into the wrong crowd and did poorly in school. At 23 I had a stroke. That was my ah-ha moment. I realized I had to get my spiritual, physical, emotional & financial well being together. I often feel like people are waiting for me to fail. But that also motivates me to work hard in all I do. I'm insecure about my weight. I had my son almost 5 month ago and I'm still 15lbs above my pre baby weight. I love my mind though. I feel I'm very bright, quick witted and can manage anything that comes my way. I also love my smile. I catch myself holding onto the story that I'm physically & mentally sick. I tend to use it as my cushion. When I don't succeed at something I fall back on the idea that with my conditions I should be happy just to be alive. But my new story is that my illnesses don't define me. They are there to catapult me into my destiny. I'd tell a 12 year old me that she is beautiful just the way she is. To change for no one and stay the course- it gets greater later! Success is having a full heart. Happiness is in God, prayer, family, goals & a glass of wine. I’ve learned that a strong relationship is not all sex, cuddles and bubbles. It takes communication and commitment long term. I wish women would stop tearing each other down - we can do so much more together. I’m a loving, determined go getter - I am Jasmine. I’m excited to see what 2019 will bring. I am truly excited to be alive.