Allie

Daughter, sister, friend & student. My upbringing was a collective effort but I spent the most time with my grandmother, my Nanny. The day she passed away was the worst. She wasn’t just my grandmother, she was my soulmate. As a kid I was flamboyant & curious. Every moment was a performance. My sense of humor and sense of wonder are my greatest gifts. I fear not living up to my expectations. I’m learning how to simply feel anxious feelings without letting them consume me. I value balance but can have a very “all or nothing” mentality. I struggle to prioritize what is truly important and to know what can wait. There have been moments in my life where I’ve felt not good enough. I spent my whole life not fitting in & I’m fine with it. Growing up in a predominately white town I’ve always been the only person that looked like me. It’s driven me to learn everything I can and to be the best at whatever job I’m doing in order to exceed the expectations people might have for me. I compare myself to others more often than I’d like. Undoing this mindset is a top priority of mine. I’m insecure about my broad shoulders and narrow hips but I love my legs, lips and eyes. I catch myself hanging onto the old story that everyone else my age is having kids, getting married & buying a house. That I should be further along in life. My new story is that this is where I am. It’s not permanent & baby steps still move me forward. Happiness, for me, comes from laughter, music, dancing & joy. From keeping anything that doesn’t add value from entering my life. I still have more to learn about relationships but I believe it’s important to talk about expectations and to understand how you like to give and receive love. Judgement affects female relationships. Something I think many women do that I’m guilty of, is seeing another woman with a great way about her and instead of trying to be more like her, disliking her for it. I’ve taken the time to look inward and find the root of that. I’m proud of my drive and adaptability. I value knowledge and honesty. I’m open and ready to be my highest self. I’m insightful, passionate and ambitious. I am Allie. I love to bring joy and light to all things.