Jodi

Daughter, sister, aunt, widow and friend. I am 23 years sober and I am still working on becoming my true self. I am scared but hopeful. I was raised by loving parents. I worry about my mom, we lost my dad last May. My best days were graduating from college in my 40's with my husband, mom and dad there and the day I realized I was in love with Bill. My worst day was the day Bill took his last breath in May of 2014. I worry that I will never find true love again. I struggle with self worth. I have worked hard not to listen to the lies I've told myself. I am well liked, I'm not ugly or fat like I have always believed. I've often felt not good enough. I grew up in a very cliquey town but I realized how I felt was really based on lies and illusions. Now when I see the girls I was intimidated by in high school we have nice conversations. I know I've always acted like the victim and I think I've been afraid to let go of that role. But I know that no longer serves me. I'm letting go of that old story and stepping into a new one. I am a powerful spiritual human who is meant to help people on their journey to finding the light inside of them. I'd tell a 12 year old version of me to be the best version of herself and to ask questions no matter how silly or scared she feels. I wish there were more honest people in this world. I wish women took more time for self care and believed in themselves. The ingredients to happiness are truth, love, respect and self awareness. Authenticity is beautiful. In 10 years I hope to be helping people physically, mentally and spiritually and to be more comfortable in my own skin. I hope to be healed and sharing my life with someone. I am proud that I have never given up, even when I didn't feel like I had any reason to keep going. I have a strong soul and spirit. I am resilient, honest, trustworthy and loving. I am stronger than I ever gave myself credit for. I am Jodi. I love to be free.