NICOLE C.

Daughter, Sister, friend, fur baby mom, coach and advocate. I believe in integrity, love and always doing your best. I was raised by my Dad and Stepmom - they get the credit. I saw my biological mother every other weekend and during the week but we don't have a relationship. As a child I was scared and insecure. When you are so ashamed and afraid to be seen - you fear a lot. For 23 years I feared abandonment, rejection and felt not good enough. But now that I've come forward about the sexual abuse I suffered as a child and spoke my truth I've been able to make sense of and shatter a lot of those fears. Complex PTSD, depression and anxiety leads to that voice in my head telling me I'm not good enough. It's hard to balance my emotions but I manage it all with therapy, CrossFit, meditation, journaling, reading and lots of self care. I am resilient, relentless and strong. I used to live by the story that my sexual abuse made me weak, unlovable and damaged. But my new story is that what happened to me does not define me. I am a warrior. A survivor. A fighter. I am worthy of love and greatness awaits me. I am working towards being the best version of myself and I intend to leave a legacy that will change lives. Success is loving yourself entirely and waking up excited to live your life. Happiness is found when you live authentically with no shame or secrets. I wish there was more realness and less filters in the world. I think people are doing the best with what they have in the moment. We have no idea what people are going through. Be kind and be a good person. That's it. It's really that easy. In ten years I hope to be happy and healthy. I am proud of my strength and resiliency - both physically and mentally. I love to see myself and others accomplish things we never thought possible. I am Nicole. I am one bad bitch. I love my massive heart and I am going to help make this world a better place.